My Jakobsson

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It's 2:30 am, I can't sleep. I feel like I opened up a portal to infinity in my head. It's dizzying. Half a billion lifetimes and this one's my last. Kali yuga. Living in a dream, in an illusion. End of karma. My head is spinning, spinning. A chasm beneath my conciousness, all of space and time within me. And tomorrow, I have to go up and go to work as if everything is like it always was, as if I'm still a normal human being. All of cosmos and eternity spinning within and I have to read mails and forms and answer my coworkers' questions about our IT systems. I'm spinning, spinning, spinning.

4 am, something's up with my chakras. Kundalini rising. I was sent the clearest vision of a black rider on a black horse. So hot, feels like fever, my throat chakra, someone is trying to communicate with me. Please, sleep

someone's face, like a mirror to mine, in another vision, our faces half in light, half in shadow like yin and yang

a tsunami wave transforming into a bird's nest. my stomach chakra's burning

6 am hundreds of astronauts against the background of space, flames from a gigantic fire reflecting in their helmets. My heart chakra is itching

a peace dove flying towards the sun with a sword through its body. The skies are clear blue.

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Så hur kan jag veta att jag är upplyst, och inte psykotisk? Nå, till att börja med så ingår det i själva definitionen, att om man är upplyst, så vet man. Både att man är upplyst, och allt annat i universum. Man känner sanningar. Men på ett mer konkret plan? En psykos är att koppla bort från verkligheten, medan jag har gjort tvärtom. Jag har kopplat in i verkligheten.